Well my website (which isn't even live) was hacked sometime over the weekend by the Moroccan Defender's of Islam (nope, that's not my site -- I fixed my site). I wonder if Islam has any concept of a "chillul Hashem"? Not to mention the strange name. Why must Islam be defended? And how does hacking my website help to defend Islam? Unless you just want to give some visibility to your cause. But you would probably get more exposure holding up some signs downtown during mid-day.
Despite these annoyances, I don't really feel the inherent ill will towards Arabs. I do not sympathize with them, and I think they have a lot to answer for to Hashem. But other than that, I don't cook up this inner hatred of them. I understand that the Arabs are a modern day tsuris to the Jews; but before them it was the Xtians. I also understand that living in Israel and seeing the day to day hardships tolerated just because the Palestinians are not happy is very, very trying. However, I cannot sink to treat or to think of any other group in a way that I would loathe to be treated or thought of.
Maybe that is a "problem" -- coming from a totally different group and trying, in adulthood, to align yourself with a new group. Currently, you may be totally assimilated into your new community. But you never forget (unless you amnesia I guess) what life was like for you "before". You don't feel like you are still a part of it (in my case, I wasn't really a part of anything), but you do remember what it felt like to "not" be what you currently are. In the case of Jews, this is a group of people who have never had it easy. Even today, when there are few, widespread physical threats to the Jewish People, we are now battling psychological battles with assimilation and possessing an inferiority status.
Back to the intolerance thing; I wonder what percentage of observant Jews in diaspora are good friends with any Muslims? I have two members on the national board of my sorority who are Muslim; one is Serbian, the other is Indian. I didn't know this (they aren't very religious) until both had to miss something due to a holiday. But even if they were religious, as long as I didn't hear any anti-semitic, racist dogma being revealed, I can not really see myself not being friends with them. I was also pretty humoured by how many Arab men in Florida had no issue dating Jewish women. I am pretty sure it did not go the other way around, but I remember while being out with a group of Jewish girlfriends (from my Reform days), they used to flirt a bit and then we would reveal that we were Jewish. They were hardly phased.
8 years ago, I remember that the College of Engineering (where I worked) at WVU hosted some sort of event that involved food. There was this stuff that tasted heavenly...it was like spiced ground meat in a pastry-type filling. It was made by the wife of a student who was a White man from WV who converted to Islam. I was still hoping to convert to [Reform] Judaism, so I was just in awe of how he made such a drastic change himself. I was pretty green back then, but I was very clear about my interest in Judaism and both he and his wife (who was born Muslim) seemed very encouraging - sharing their experiences as well. I don't know..maybe they were green too.
Judaism classically teaches that there is more than one path to righteousness (as long as you stay within the 7 mitzvot for Bnei Noach; although I am confused as to rather or not adherants to other faiths can ever, truly be "good" Bnei Noach). Yet Jews seem to have a pretty low opinion of those who are not Jewish; while at the same time being half-apologetic for practicing Judaism. I guess that is why I really enjoy Y. Sofer in Eretz Yisrael, because he really practices Judaism like it's the best thing since sliced bread. There was a story he told regarding trying to make a kosher suedah in Jamaica sometime in the 1970s. Shaare Shalom brought in kosher meat from Miami, only to have the Jews of the congregation cook it in the old treif pots. "Dis 'ere a BASIC kashrus man! Unnu nah have one lick a sense; pyre vegatable and fish ya haffe nyam affa righta now, you nah seyit?"
Being a Torah observant Jew is not easy, but I wonder if there were a slight (just a slight) shift in attitude, that one aspect, the relationship with our non-Jewish neighbors, improve. This is not about extending the olive branch. It's more about seeing the humanity present all around us. I don't know if it's because I'm a convert-in-training or what the story is, but my old non-Jewish co-workers used to flock to me for any sort of Jewish question that popped into their minds. I would rather they have not did this, because there were plenty of other Jews around they could have asked; but somehow that didn't happen. Some were good questions...like "What's the difference between Sukkot, Sukkas and Shabbas?"...and then some were ridiculous like "Do Jews really have sex with a sheet between them?". As weird and awkward as all of that was, I would like to think that Jewish people lost a bit of their "alien status" and just a bit more understanding was established there. Now I have a new job with one co-worker who wears a "Jesus is my King" type t-shirt every other day and two other co-workers who have pastors in their immediate families and discuss the latest revival events. I am hoping no round of questions come my way this time...but it may be inevitable.
I guess that's ok; as long as I can ask questions about their religions as well.
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Miss S. - I'm a non-practicing Jew and for some reason, I find your quest very interesting. You seem like a person who has a very liberated (for want of a better word) sensibility and yet you are striving to join a group that at its core is organized around restricting the liberty of its adherents. As a women who grew up in a "frei" (as they say) millieu, I would find that life very confining - the purity laws, the coverage in summer, the hats and wigs, the no singing in front of men, etc. I admire you taking this on but I worry that you're going to find it hard to be accepted, not so much for the color of your skin, but for the free spiritedness that you embody, which is very threatening and alien to many in this group.
Hello Esther :-)
Thank you for your comment; I truly appreciate your frankness; and I believe your observation holds a lot of water. I think the key theme of your comment is "acceptance". I fully realize that I will have issues with full acceptance in the frum community -- and it's not a phenomena that I take lightly. However you assume that I do (or would have) an easier time finding acceptance in the secular community...and that is not the case either. I am a woman that finds solace in living a religious life and doing things not particularly for my sake, but to pay homage to a force greater and outside of myself. I see no great joy in engaging in sex before marriage (or without any bounds within a marriage) and no shame in needing to cover bare skin now and my hair when married.
You'll notice this blog has some gaps in it time-wise. Some where voluntary...some were involuntary...where I just needed to step away from the frum community. Not because of doubts about the community...but doubts about my eventual goals. I 'could' be a Conservative/Reform/Reconstructionist "Jew"...I 'could' be a Bnei Noach; and I made efforts to do such. But both situations leave me very much unsettled. If I were the type of individual where community acceptance was paramount, I could see myself running away without a second thought from Orthodox Judaism. But the truth is that it is more important that I reconcile my actions with my beliefs...and those beliefs are represented by Orthodox Judaism; the community that supports those beliefs in life is the Orthodox Jewish community. Whether they accept me or not is their issue...not mine. I will not expunge them because living a Torah observant life takes a community many times; but I will not allow the naysayers to be the deal breaker when it comes to my desired spiritual path.
I admire certainty about your path. It's funny. In my town (Teaneck) we have lots of OJs, lots of other types of Jews, lots of African Americans, lots of Jamaicans and people from the Islands. We even have some Jews of color although not tons.
I'm in the process of learning about Orthodox Judaism in more of a detached sense than anything else.
What I see is a community where people behave in extremely circumscribed ways because they are fearful of being shunned by their community.
I also see a palpable fear that children will leave the fold if they are not held on a short leash and married off to a suitable partner as young as possible. And you are probably aware of how narrow the definitions of a suitable partner have become.
I also see that people make educational and career choices that are significant influenced by the constraints of their faith. A child growing up in that community that showed any talent early on for drama, art, music would be highly unlikely to find encouragement to pursue a creative field in any serious way.
As a feminist and a person for whom music is a huge part of my life, I wonder how many young girls are married off and impregnated before they even get a chance to figure out who they are as people.
I'm just wondering whether there's any way to embrace the spiritual side of Judaism with buying into all the baggage, which seems to be a later development?
Just some thoughts..
What I see is a community where people behave in extremely circumscribed ways because they are fearful of being shunned by their community.
Absolutely...you definitely have that going on. It comes from being a small minority community and having (what I feel is) an inferiority complex regarding yourself. This sounds harsher than what it is. What it is for many people is that they fear being alone; and many people have a very good reason to do so. They are not able to make it on their own; without the reinforcement from others. This is not always bad; and it even has it's positive points. But what is bad about it is that you get the situation where people are lying to themselves. They are not Orthodox Jews because they believe in what they are doing or because Hashem mandates to live so (I say the latter because Judaism stresses action over belief...but that's a bit too involved for this discussion); but they are Orthodox Jews because they fear that if they were not, they would be 'all alone'. From what I have seen...you do not have to many of these people who have this issue.
I also see a palpable fear that children will leave the fold if they are not held on a short leash and married off to a suitable partner as young as possible. And you are probably aware of how narrow the definitions of a suitable partner have become.
Well I have no first-hand experience with the fear that my offspring will go off the derech; but I would think any parent would have all sorts of fears about their children. Much more serious fears; like will they get hit by a car when they are out riding their bicycle? As far as getting married young; that skips back to the loneliness issue; whereas the older your child gets (especially female children), the smaller the pool of "desirable" mates become. Now you have to hope and pray that the child has truly internalized the importance of living a Torah observant life in spite of the fact that they are single because of it* (* there -- because I'm talking about those who would have no real issues going out into secular society and finding someone to marry).
But back to the "desirable" mate part; I feel no pity for parents (or people) who maintain this long grocery lists of qualities they want from their make-believe, fairy-tale, frum partner-to-be...and then wonder why they are still single. If you snub your nose at a mentch simply because they are too fat, or losing their hair, or use plastic plates for Pesach, or their mamma wears pants, or because their grandpa was born in Uganda; then maybe you really should be alone.
I also see that people make educational and career choices that are significant influenced by the constraints of their faith. A child growing up in that community that showed any talent early on for drama, art, music would be highly unlikely to find encouragement to pursue a creative field in any serious way.
Maybe it sounds too cliche...but "where there's a will, there's a way". The frum community does not have a big, wide range of diversity when it comes to professions. I myself am making a career change mainly due to my "new" lifestyle. But then again, career and profession are secondary to me; in that living a life guided by Torah becomes your true "job". It's sort of like being born on a farm; you do not have to grow up, and become a farmer. But often times the cycle of living on a farm is the only life you know...and it becomes a part of your nature; and even if you go out and work in a gas station; you always know in the back of your mind that someone needs to feed the cows...someone needs to till the corn fields, etc.
In regards to the arts, Israel has a pretty large community of Orthodox Jews in the performing and fine arts (even dancing...although it's for the religious crowd). Of course the big compromise there is no everyone can live in Israel I guess.
As a feminist and a person for whom music is a huge part of my life, I wonder how many young girls are married off and impregnated before they even get a chance to figure out who they are as people.
Two words for you..."Bristol Palin". LOL...sorry, I just could not help myself. Ok; seriously. Many young Orthodox Jewesses (doesn't that sound "exotic"?) have it pretty much in their make up that there is no greater joy than to become a wife, mother, and build a Beit Neiman b'Yisrael. End of story really. No one ever accused the Orthodox Jewish community of being pro-feminist...that is for sure. I used to think I was a feminist myself, but then I went to an aviation maintenance school to learn how to become a technician for aviation electronic systems. There I found myself continually compromising my G-d given femininity and apologizing for not being a man a few too many times. That's when I personally felt the need to throw "feminism" into the can; and this was several years before I ventured into the world of Orthodox Judaism.
People are very different; and we should remember that some of us are simpler than others. On one hand, you can sort of feel bad for woman who has a beautiful singing voice, yet she was born an Orthodox Jew, so she will never make it to Carnegie Hall. But then again, her children would not be hearing her sing at the Shabbos table...because she probably wouldn't be observing Shabbos; and she probably wouldn't even have those particular children who would be appreciating it so much. So now we threaten to open Pandora's Box when wishing for all of the "what if's".
I'm just wondering whether there's any way to embrace the spiritual side of Judaism with buying into all the baggage, which seems to be a later development?
I hope so; and it's something that all Jews (not just Orthodox Jews...but especially Orthodox Jews) should strive for. With that being said...we all have baggage. Some of us obsess over our image; some of us picked up some pesky STDs back in college; some of us have addictions. Life itself comes chock full of baggage!
Anyway, thank you so much Esther for sharing your thoughts on my blog! I really enjoy thinking about the points your brought up :-)
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